Tuesday, January 15, 2013

As Somnolence takes me in



At night under the eye of the sun
Last moment before you give up reality
And before you give in to dreams
There is state where you may choose which gate to pass in your sleep
There was a time when you dedicated that song for me
That song was my Panacea that keeps my heart together
That kept my eyes from weeping
That kept my soul from creeping
In a world full of non since
You made the entire unknown soulful
Now that the dark destiny torn us apart
Forfeits you in another world
Like the gray clouds obscuring the sun in long cold winter
As Somnolence takes me in
The songs that used to make us dance in exhilaration
Those songs became the poison
The drug that I’m eternally addicted to
As my eyes are floods with thin film of bitter tears
In that state of Somnolence I feel total despair to see you again
It might sound insane
But yes
An incarnated light of your sweet face manifested in a reverie
So I give up my sorrows
Hoping that we will be joined tomorrow
And I fall into my own bubble of void insanity

you wake up in pain

Eyes
You wake up insane
You wake up in pain
You’ve seen the last moments of a silent dream
And you’ll soon be reopened to a nightmare
Loud and clear
That the love you’ve once had
The passion that you used to share
For ever gone
It’s not really there
So hold and behold
It’s the same garden
The same sycamore that used to hold us in its shade
Behold the phantom of the birds
That used to fill the place with their songs
Behold the pavements that used to blossom and cheer
Behold the branches covered in ice
The dead leaves and cold wind plays them
Behold the scared bleeding heart
Cold like the days of September
Behold my eyes you can’t cry
My soul went ice dry
And nothing can move it again
You wake up in pain covered with newspaper
Like any beggar
Only you beg for her back
For the sun on your face
For the lake to be alive again
For the love that you once had
You breathe but you don’t seem to be alive
Inhaling sadness
Exhaling regrets and the stinks of your stupid mistakes
And as the spring arrives
You won’t feel any warmth
To your heart you can’t feel her close
The sun seems pale on the gloomy sunrise
You once called her my life
And when she left you felts that everything inside you dies
Now that she’s for ever gone
Behold the last few moments of your silent dream
As loud as cruel
You will never feel her in your arms again

i curse the moon

As I passed by the castle
Where I used to be a knight
I stared at the ruins
Of the glory that bards used to sing
And all I heard was predatory Howling
And the dark of ravens in the sky
I couldn’t take it
I want to hide inside my head
As I walked beneath the grayish twilight
A gloomy site
The fire has eaten everything
Between the dark blue noise
I thought I heard that voice
It said she’s waiting for you
In the ancient temple
Behind the stream
But I knew
It’s all lies
And the walls of the castle
Would deceive me
Who am I
Just a homeless in a place that I used to call home
Just a shadow amongst the darkness where I used to live the light
And under the gloomy grayish twilight
I saw her walking towards me from a distance
Down the stream
Beside the ancient temple ruins
Could it be that I am dreaming
Could it be that she too survived
A sign of life between the shades
Beside the dead fountain
There she was in black cloak
As the cold wind brought her perfume to my lungs
I felt alive
So I took her in my arms
I let a tear
She wasn’t real
She just vanished through the shades
And I fell to my knees
On the rocky streets of the old town
Where I used to be the child
I just wept by the stream
My bitter tears emerged the water
And my dreams found their way to the cemeteries
I’m a stranger in this place
Where they all died
I will live with my disgrace
And every day I just walk amongst the ruins
Amongst my memories
The place is dead
Where I used to be a youth
White of hairs burnt my head
I am close to fall dead
And all I wanted was one last time
To see the place where I used to be a king
Where I used to drink and sing
Where we never knew the sorrows
Where we thought that tomorrow
Will never bring us so much pain
Will never ever break our hearts
And beneath that tree by the stream
Where we both lived a dream
Where we had our first kiss
Where the air carried the words of I love you of our lips
We never knew that we’re destined to be torn apart
On that place where I used to be alive
I curse that day when I was the only who survived
I curse the moon and its light in a long long lonely night
I curse myself it is true I survived but I just ran I didn’t fight