Saturday, March 24, 2012

Nirvana

There was a time
When we used to dance
Under the moonlight
By the Nile
As I held you tight
To feel your heart
So close to mine
To smell your scent
And to kiss your lips
There was a time
When we were one
Those times are gone
Long live nirvana
Long live our love
Carved on the tree
Carved onto our hearts
A song on every tongue
There was a time
Drunkard with wine
When we were together
When you were mine
Under the sun light
On that bench
Near the tree
By the Nile
Feelings mingled
Fingers tangled
We made it right
Love we spoke
And as we walk
In our own dream
Another realm
We’re just together
And this life
And all its splendor
It didn’t matter
And I just knew
You were the one
And now you’re gone
Long live nirvana
Long live our love
Carved on the tree
Carved in our hearts
A song on every tongue
Now there are times
When I’m thinking to myself
Everything is the same
The bench
The Nile is still running
The tree with our names carved on
The moon and the sun
And you’re still the one
But now you’re gone
And our love is gone
It’s all dark around me
Nights and days
With no moon
With no sun
With no light
With no truth
Except for one
You are the one
Long live nirvana
Long live our love
Carved on the tree
Carved in our hearts
A song on every tongue

Thursday, March 22, 2012

hollow

Can’t think
Of anything
To make this real
Just how to tell you
The way I feel
About you
And I wonder
Do you feel it too?
Do you want me just like I do?
And how I go
Through this life
Without you
A hollow
That’s how I feel
And that moment
It looked so real
But it seemed surreal
Your smile
And those eyes
Made me fall a martyr
Rise a knight
You smiled at a dead man
And dead men can’t fight
You enslaved me
With one site
Mesmerized my soul
Captured my all
Since this moment
And until for ever
In my reverie
I’m longing for you
For so many nights
It’s you I crave
And your face I save
Carved on my heart
And I pray
That you just sway
My way
That gesture
That looks that you gave
And how pale was my face
My heart just fell
For you
But I just let go
Let go of you
So I pray
That you don’t stray
Out of my thoughts
That you just stay
Between mind and heart
And until that day
When we meet again
It’s just a drought
That’s how I feel
Do you feel it too?

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Only me, myself and I

Only me, myself and I in my insulation
At night insomniac, me my guitar and desperation
Coffees are wine… wine and coffee
Am I asleep or awake, sober or stoned?
Trapped between my guitar and my bottle made my mold
Chocked with a scream
There goes my dream
As I wondered who am I
Falling into frustration
It’s me who had it all in my hands and I let go
It’s me who ran the hills of heaven with joy and I didn’t know
And now I know
Now I know
Only me, myself and I in my insulation
In a bar full of people as I play my giutar with exhilaration
Then there she was
At the door
Chocked with words
I couldn’t sing
As she said hi
And her voice rang
In my ears
I can’t rely on my hallucinations
It’s me who had it all in my hands and I let go of it
It’s me who ran the hills of heaven with laughter and I didn’t realize it
Now I know… it was you…
It was you

prologue

When you’re in drugs, nothing is real nothing is certain as a drug addicted you know that as one I know that. Your life lies somewhere between blurred oblivion and dizzy reverie. In the 1st time you do drugs you’re happy funny and careless. Chronic junkies are miserable boring self centered and restless… zombies. So why do we do drugs? Speaking of myself I’m a realistic by nature my brains is killing me so I’m just returning the favor. Oh yeaaaaah. I’m in the car right now next to a fancy restaurant where my girlfriend is waiting and it’s the big day. Right after this cocaine pump. Helllllllllll yeah. Where were we? Right… in the car with a diamond ring in my jacket and a dream I want it to come true. I’m gonna go in there and propose to her. Sarah My baby Sarah  She’s everything a man wish for. pretty smart thoughtful and above all… she loves me for all the things that makes me the jerk who I am. Cocaine is talking or as I prefere to believe I insulated my brain letting my feelings navigates me. It takes lots of courage to take such a step. Proposal Which I lack or maybe I don’t have any… courage. That’s why cocaine is so important in my life you shouldn’t trust that but I do somehow it always worked with me. And I’m sure it will now.
Between reverie and oblivion cocaine does the talking for you you’re lost but you just keep walking where ever it takes you that’s just your destination. It’s always a bad ass story just like mine… just like ours.
In the restaurant I took my steps heavy and filled with indecision toward Sarah. There she was sparkling as always if she wasn’t a doctor she would be a super model. From head to toes I scanned her with my eyes my stoned eyes. Man she’s a mermaid a nymph no she’s a goddess only if those entities exists. And I’m just… Max.
Hey baby
Hey… as we kissed I smelled her scent that drove me even more stoned
I missed you so much..How are you?
Hmmm good. I missed you too
How was your day?
Not bad. Well actually horrendous… it was
Oh… why what happened?
I lost a patient
Oh my… I’m sorry
….
It’s not the 1st time is it???
Yeah… What ever
You did everything you could?
Aha
So why are you upset?
I’m not. I wasn’t… when we told her parents. Her mother fell on the ground. And she died too
Oh my god
That’s what happened
This is just crazy

I hate my job now
We all do. Don’t we…
Good evening Sir. Mess
Good evening
What would it be? Tonight we ha… just get me a bottle of whiskey
And You? Sir
Ah… hmmmm we will just stick to the whiskey. Thank you
This would make my task only harder or just easy… the night was young and I had it all planned. Now it’s dead. Just like her patient and her mood. I know when she orders whiskey she gets edgy and I better just avoid her. However it worth a shot… I’ll do it either way. I just can’t wait any more.
Sarah
Yes hon
Weeeee….ve been together for over a year now and I’ve come to realize…
That’s you’re so important to me and without you… cocaine isn’t talking…
Without you…  without you… I am just……..
What? Max
I’m deeply in love with you and… and… I told myself cut the crap Max break it for her…
I took her hand in mine… posted a kiss on it. And I reached to the ring in my pocket
Sarah… wou…
Her cell phone rang. Damn. It was a bad ass story just like many of our nights together. The hospital calls her for an emergency.
Aha… okay… I’m on my way.
You have to go?
I have to go

Sorry.. I’m really sorry
Don’t be… it’s your duty. Right
I’m glad you understand

So… you were saying???
Saved by the waiter … the whiskey sir
Thank you
Can I get you anything else?
The check please.
You’re leaving this early?

Just get us the check Mr … I’m really sorry Max
I ruined it as usual. I’ll make it up for you… I promise… love you. She kissed me good bye and fled.
Right then I had a moment of clarity
We’ve been together for over a year now and I’ve come to realize that mermaids nymphs goddesses doesn’t exist Which made me reconsider the whole marriage proposal thing For the better good for both of us Specially me.